My job...

So I started a new job back in March. At first it was tough because getting up at 4am is not easy for me :p but now I am working 8-430 and who knew sitting on a phone and taking calls could be so exhausting! My voice is all raspy, I have had a headache for 2 days, and I basically get yelled at everyday. Which is fun! Not really... people like to call in and blame you for their lack of common sense. I try to brush it off but sometimes the picking gets to be too much, and I just really want to take off my headset and leave, I can see how some people develop thick skin working with this company. You kinda need to have it. Other then that the job is alright :p As far as life, its been going alright. I have a new love in the music area.. Lady Gaga.. her music is so catchy! I have been listening to a lot of music lately because it helps me get rid of built up anger. Its better than taking my anger out on the wall which is what I have been known to do... hence the fractured hand @ Christmas time.. presents were not fun to open! I am currently in the process of getting my pharmacy license back! Which I am super stoked about! I cannot wait to get back into that field! It's where I am suppose to be! But anywho.. that is my update for now! Hope all is well out there.. and I will try to stop punching walls! :)

The very worst part of you... is me.

I love listening to this song when I'm angry and just need something to help me calm me!

"Lying From You"

When I pretend everything is what I want it to be
I look exactly like what you had always wanted to see
When I pretend, I can’t forget about the criminal I am
Stealing second after second just cause I know I can but
I can’t pretend this is the way it’ll stay I’m just
(trying to bend the truth)
I can’t pretend I’m who you want me to be, so I’m

[Chorus:]
(Lying my way from you)
No no turning back now
(I wanna be pushed aside so let me go)
No no turning back now
(Let me take back my life,I’d rather be all alone)
No turning back now
(Anywhere on my own cause I can see)
No no turning back now
(The very worst part of you is me)

I remember what they taught to me
Remember condescending talk of who I ought to be
Remember listening to all of that and this again
So I pretended up a person who was fittin’ in
And now you think this person really is me and I’m
(Trying to bend the truth)
But the more I push the more I'm pulling away 'cause I'm

[Chorus:]
(Lying my way from you)
No no turning back now
(I wanna be pushed aside so let me go)
No no turning back now
(Let me take back my life I’d rather be all alone)
No turning back now
(Anywhere on my own cause I can see)
No no turning back now
(The very worst part of you)
(The very worst part of you is ME)

This isn’t what I wanted to be, I never thought that what I said would
have you running from me
Like This
This isn’t what I wanted to be, I never thought that what I said would
have you running from me
Like This
This isn’t what I wanted to be, I never thought that what I said would
have you running from me
Like This
This isn’t what I wanted to be, I never thought that what I said would
have you running from me
Like This

[Chorus:]
(You)
No turning back now
(I wanna be pushed aside so let me go)
No no turning back now
(Let me take back my life I’d rather be all alone)
No turning back now
(Anywhere on my own cause I can see)
No no turning back now
(The very worst part of you)
(The very worst part of you is me)