You're a constant echo, I hear ringing in my ears...

I don't know if many people can relate, but I am sure some can. I just wish my life would get back to normal sometimes. I miss the normal part where my grandpa was still alive, I miss a certain someone so much. I try not too. I never thought that I would be where I am at right now. I guess it's all part of God's plan for me, and I try to have faith in him and know that he wants me to learn from these situations I get put in. But it's so hard to accept. I guess to accept and move on. I try to be strong but it's so hard when all you want to do everyday is cry because your life changed from normal to what the heck is going on? Where am I? I just wish I could breathe. My heart aches so bad lately, and I miss my family. I miss the structure. I have alienated myself from so many people, and it's because I get tired of faking happy. I try to be happy for real, but it's hard when you feel like you can't cry.

Back from Alaska.

Well. I went to Anchorage. I had a lot of fun. My cousin got married, we went to the zoo, went on a glacier cruise... got to see my family. It was nice. I almost didn't want to come home. Ha ha! These are some of the glaciers we saw from the boat. We got really close and its amazing how cold it was, just from the wind coming over it.


Just a few pics from our trip. It was AMAZING.

Happy 4th!

So, it's the 4th. I don't think I am doing much at all... I have to work today and no one really has anything planned. I think I may just go over to my dad's and chill with everyone there.

Well be safe! Don't blow your hand off! Remember kids... if it goes up or blows up... it's ILLEGAL!


Heh heh. Have a good one everyone!!! *HUGS*